Long back ago, I heard the story of a man in his 30's. He was traveling by a train and extremely overwhelmed, to see the world outside, like a 3-4 year old kid. The fascination of moving trees, roads, mountains, birds & even a dust flow, along with the train. Passengers nearby were literally annoyed to see his behavior, where he was neither a kid nor a specially abled person. He was absolutely, a normal, 30 year old man. But... those were the same people, who later embraced something inside him - the joy of seeing this world 'first time'. He was blind by birth. By the eye-donor's grace, he just got the new eyes & was embracing his new vision and so... the people around him, were embracing too.
Its an era where we all thrive for something new and are running behind something new. Be it at a job, a career or a family. Its not bad though, rather its an important thing to aspire for something. However, when we learn something new on this journey, do we really take a pause, stay there for a moment & enjoy or embrace of being a novice? Not really or Not all the time. Right? We always had that thirst, to be perfect or to do more. And that drives us to push hard on ourselves. We work hard, spend sleepless nights and awaits the result. Sometimes we able to make it or sometimes not. Then again, our race(rat race?) gets started, in case of failure, to give another shot and in case of success, to touch newer milestones.
Do we really take some time out and think, "I learnt something new today. Let me enjoy this" E.g. when I learnt to ride a bicycle at age 6, my thoughts were to ride, ride & simply ride, till I fell tired. I never though then, to ride a scotty, then a car, then a rickshaw or something else. The life was simple, I learnt one thing today and so, I will enjoy it. I won't think of its bigger version and let it ruin my current happiness of being newbie.
Unfortunately, today we do so. When I started writing my blogs, initially I thought, "ohh.. I shouldn't post this, people will judge me by my writing skills. They might laugh on my grammatical mistakes. They might make a perception if I write something unusual." In short, I was full of unnecessary thoughts. But one day, I dare to post. Surprisingly no one criticized. Rather, they appreciated. This gave me a boost. I wrote another blog & post it. People liked that too. I gain more confidence, to write few more blogs. And that's how, my journey started there. For the first time in recent years, I never thought 'what's next'. I just kept writing. No matter somebody likes it or not. I started writing for myself, I felt happy when I wrote it.
But you know... There is an interesting twist here.. I am aware, after spending some more time and putting more efforts, someday I am going to move from this 'newbie phase' to the 'expert phase'. There I might get more love, more likes, more reach to my blogs.... but for me, getting 'few' now, in this newbie phase, is more precious. Because... 'first things are always special', like your first love, first try, first job, first reward and many such things. Newbie is the 'witness' of all those first things... Don't spoil it... Embrace it... It is a beautiful feeling ❤